Hey Folks!

This last 6 months my thinking has changed alot on the spiritual metaphysical order of the universe and the structure of the brain.

I have a severe handi-cap: I have Attention Deficit Disorder. As such I naturally seem to learn and create through the integrated experiences of thoughts flowing through my head, whether they are mine or non-local through the universal intelligents of the ether (Collective Subconsicous Universal Intelligents)

This basically makes me an abstract collective learner. But unfortunately the rest of the world does not function this way, i.e. in integrated benefical wholes of thought and/or concepts.

Logic seems to RULE EVERYTHING! What is in front of us, seemsed to be more important than what is BEYOND US (i.e. our ability to draw from a birds-eye point blank, something that currently we cannot even see or precieve, but one in which reason dictates to us is most likely still out there for us to discover)

I cannot seem to hold my attention long enough to learn any form of higher mathematics for example because of my so-called instinctual handicapp in the other area.

In this other AREA called logic I am a complete DUNCE!! I would so love to have a bit more of a logical brain and a task oriented mind to balance my other gift and/or curse: A.D.D.

A.D.D. has slowed down much in my life especially in the areas of employment. Don't come after me with a big long list of things to do in a particular order. I will most likely take to long doing them, forget to do the things on the list, or worst of all of the problem: get distracterd and start doing something else.

I have been accused with SOME former employers of not listening to them, not caring about my duties, being inconsiderate etc. This of course had nothing to do with my work ethic (which was/is impeccable)
I work hard, stay late and do more than my fair share, but not in there time frame and not in their busied environment.

Just don't stick me in a room with to many people talking at one. Also please don't talk to me FAST, the words will ALL go right over my head and out my ears, before they will ever reach any part of my brain or consciousness.

Unfortunately for me This IS A left brain LOGICAL world.
I took BASIC alegebra 3 times in College before I finally passed. the Higest Grade I ever got was a C- for the semester.

In many academic disciplines outcomes are the same reguardless of method, and learning modalities can sometimes be adjusted. Science and Math unfortunately are not some of these for me.

I guess what I am saying here is that I WISH I could compensate in some way to become a more LOGICAL learner as this would make me more social conscious and accepted in functioning groups of people.

If this cannot be achieved than of of course I would preferred to have an occupation in a controlled environment where I can be creative and independant of some-elses timeline or short term goal requirements (for the hours within the day)

Of Course I may never be fully as LOGICAL as many of the gifted scientists and mathmaticians are, my gift is in the OTHER domain: REASON. I am totally happy with this gift which comes to me from God, and my improved attitude toward the creation, but unfortunately the rest of society is not willing to compensate when it comes to my ability to relate. And if I cannot compensate at least I hope to come PART WAY to the LOGICAL side within myself. And I am certain that my career would be slowed down, through an inability to logically concentrate and/or listen to others for protracted periods of time.

Also I have been a SLOW SLOW learner in college. And still I have a hard time reading a book and finishing it in a REASONABLE amount of time. It took me 7 years of pondering to learn the "secret" in Think and Grow Rich. I've conversely heard of some people discovering thier potential in this book upon the FIRST READING, of course they were fast readers and logical, and most went on to discover many new sciences. I had to take notes, ponder each word, analyze etc. before grasping the undisputed concept. Talk about slow, and even then I could not use the Universal Faculty in the way that they did!

Reason vs. Logical

Logic wins in the work place and in academics.

Reason in the world of poets, musicians and philosophers.

Call me greedy but I wish I could do both things well and learn in those glorious ways that other do, in this fast paced, social intergrated, ever respoding, scientific world that is today.

Bring on the calculus and the geometry, and God help me learn soemthing different from the way that I do learn. Just don't give me the story problems!

Please! Anything but the story problems!

Dewey (the Telepathic Scatter Brain)