Let's keep this thread going, to do some good if possible.

I found that grief came in waves, a great overwhelming rush of feeling that left me sobbing helplessly, and eventually receded to the usual hollow ache. It turned out that these waves of feeling were necessary to help me cope with just getting through the day. I hope you have a place where you can let go privately. And while I don't want to presume to offer advice, I can say from experience - don't fight it, let it happen.

Having been through the terrible pain of loss and survived, I find this thread bringing tears to my eyes, and wishing I could bear your pain for you, knowing that it eventually eases.

My heart, and many others, are with you.