AT some point, Allison, a guided imagery tape may help. I have been working with one for my heart and the woman who does it warns at the beginning that it may bring up some deep emotions. She goes on to reassure that it is good and to let them come forth.

I've always been pretty good at that, so was very surprised one day. I was lying on my bed listening to the tape, going into a meditative state when the narrator got to a particular part where one is to envision all of the love they have ever received in life, to remember all those who have loved them, love them now and may love them in the future. The love is to be visualised as a cushion, enveloping the person. I was zipping right along when it suddenly hit me...my mother's love. I began to sob uncontrollably, crying out, "Oh, Mama," over and over. It was as though she'd just passed, when it had really been four years. I realised I was not done, and never will be done, missing her, but I did feel a lot better after releasing that.

pdc, I agree, this si a good one to keep going. What is that saying, I know Big Mick has posted it before, something about joy shared is doubled, sorrow shared is halved? Something like that. Together we have some pretty broad shoulders for one another.

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