Thanks, Barbara. I thought of NOMAD often, and of Carol, Byron's music partner who kept their commitment and played for the Saturday night 9 pm English dance. I'll look at the thread.
After 6 weeks, there are definitely longer moments of peace. But then a memory will come rushing in, or a bad dream (I woke up Sunday am reliving his death). But even that memory has been softened by the EMDR work I did.
I'm not "better". But I'm learning to live the life of an amputee.