I just want to say how much I admire you for what you're doing for this child; your open-heartedness & unselfish kindness is certainly making a difference in her life. As for "whining", it's completely understandable that you feel wretched at being parted from her at the holidays, but rest assured that those "ho-hum" times of the year count for a lot more in the big picture than a few special days.

Bless you,

D.