Oh, I envy people with faith. I gave up on the church a long time ago (too authoritarian - and I could see clay feet they were trying to under gold cloth) and gave up on the idea of there being a God or higher spiritual being a few years ago, after my son died and a the subsequent heart searching had gone on for a year or so.
Nowadays I try and live by do as you would be done by . . . I think I'm a better person now, though, than I was then - I spend more time making sure I'm helping those that are struggling than I did before.