come one come all - been there, done that, had a lot of fun...tired of just that. finally put a stop to him using his fingers and all to satisfy as what I want is him. i'd be a lot better if we just knew why but it is something he refuses to find out. i know he is trying to work it out in his own way but it's been a long time; mostly i can enjoy what we do have and let it go but then i feel the loss so much it hurts and i lash out with angry words which i know do not help