just seeing the beautiful shawl you created with so much love and how it incorporates so much energy from (and to) others makes me know that you are such a creative and sharng person. If you were not such, you would not be experiencing this situation with so much empathy. You are a
unique individual and this is a unique test of your survival skills.
You can be re-assured as you look around you that there is much beauty and much to be thankful for. Since your heart has such a capacity,
you may be feeling this more acutely than others. hugs to you!