Yes, obv. the grannie is paranoid.
Doesnt sound like anything remotely like a pagan ritual going on, and quite frankly, the Mother Goose nursery rhymes are not exactly the most appropriate homage to the Gods, Nature, or anything, and esp. in a public library (with Mormans!!)!!

As for Bear - feeling very sad for you and your troubles. Although how we get to being who we are can often envoke painful memories when remembered (and indeed at the time too), it's best to think that at least we can put something back into the world which is what we would wish for, thus makeing the bad become fruitfully good instead.

Sounds like you are certainly makeing the most of this gift (if you can call it that...)