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Look on the bright side, you are making all your own decisions for yourself. More importantly, you are young enough and flexible enough to understand that no decision is permanent. You can up and move if and when the mood strikes and be responsible for your own happiness.

Take stock of what you love about this home. There are things you will not be willing to forgo in a new place. While in it, make it your home not just the place where you sleep.

Life is very good.
SINS