Thanks, friends. From your responses, it seems that I sounded more negative than I really feel. I was all set to fit in, but I find that, between my kids being an hour north & my sweetheart being more than an hour south & all three only being available on weekends, I don't have a lot of discretionary time. It was mostly Rick resurfacing from my past that threw me for a loop. In my mind, I was all set to live a solitary life. Just as I started, I was no longer alone. My outlook is pretty positive; it's just that, yet again, life isn't turning out as I expected it would.

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