Too long, Lily. Get some help. See your family doctor and then a therapist if necessary. The last thing Veronica needs is for you to fall apart especially if she is headed back to you. Stay strong.

A little trick I play on myself when the world falls apart - pretend it is a year from now and this crisis is not only over but settled to my satisfaction. A form of meditation I guess. "What the mind of man can conceive and believe, it can achieve."