Dear Guest T.J., I'm very glad if the words I wrote here back in March have been a help to you. Whatever has happened in the past, or is happening in the present, you deserve no less than to be kind to yourself - your past self, your present self. It really is only an illusion when we feel all alone. This thread shows how many of us here gain from speaking from the heart and helping each other. May your ache be soon soothed, T.J.