belter - You might benefit from reading some good books which go into the concept a litte more at length than I've got time for here.

Let me put it another way: I believe there is a beneficent, intentional power within me and all around me that inspires me, assists me, works through me, and communicates with me powerfully as long as I am willing to listen to it and act upon what it tells me. I call that "God". I also call it "Life". I also call it "Spirit". I also call it "Inspiration" or "Muse" or "Intuition" or "Love".

Because of it I perceive that I am not alone. Before I believed in it I definitely thought I was alone. Because of it I perceive that my real power lies within. Before I believed in it I thought that real power lay outside of me.

Does that help?

Have you ever read a good book on Taoism? Hinduism? Buddhism? Native American Medicine Way? Kinesiology? Meditation?

Any of those might help.

Why argue with me about it? Read what's out there and think it over.