"Thanks for asking" indeed! You damn fool - some of us are worried about you and now that Kendall has Jacqui I am free to concentrate on you. Poor Jon!

Mick is right. This is not going to be easy but take it one day at a time. And sometimes, accept what the experts are telling you at face value. In time, you will be able to see the truth of it. When it is too hard - do it anyway because you are worth the effort and there is a world full of people who need and love you. And Pip deserves the best from you, Jon.
Mary