I was so much older then, I'm younger than that now."   - Bob Dylan
I'm kind of glad that, somewhere along the way I've
1. Lost interest in even trying to totally rationalize all my thoughts and feelings about faith or God, or the lack thereof, as Raedwulf seems to be straining so hard to do.
2. Concluded that it makes no sense whatever to feel that I must believe everything that is in "The Book", even when the brain cells that "God" gave me tell me a lot of it is contrary to observable and demonstrable fact.

I will probably keep using male pronouns for God, out of habit, and because saying "it" feels to me like speaking of something less than, rather than more than, human male or female. One thing I appreciate from the Christian Science tradition is their use of the expression (if I have it right) "Our Father/Mother God.

As to the "problem of evil", maybe realizing that easy answers don't really work for anyone is something of of a beginning of wisdom. (Don't take that as knocking anyone here; I think there has been a lot of good honest reflection on this thread).