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Thread #14851   Message #139934
Posted By: seagoddess
23-Nov-99 - 11:16 AM
Thread Name: Performance Anxiety
Subject: RE: Performance Anxiety
Who would have thought that after 22 years of successful public performances, sometimes for audiences of thousands including national network tv, I would encounter performance anxiety! Well, it's happened and I don't like it. I still have no problem performing before huge audiences; it's those small, intimate ones that get me shaking. Oh, I have all sorts of theories -- the impersonal, anonymous nature of large audiences vs. the acute attention paid by small audiences means I can't just disappear into my stage personna, the song visuals, etc. But all the theories in the world don't help when it's actually happening. The anxiety presents itself in the worst possible ways: can't tune my instruments (don't believe the electronic tuner -- it must be malfunctioning, like me!), can't match my vocal key to the one the instrument is playing, and can't find those elusive first lines! Give me a large audience and I am golden; small audience and I fall apart; audience of one -- not a chance! I now envy those near-sighted musicians who can take off their glasses and make the audience disappear...maybe if I wore glasses that gave me double or multiple vision, I could trick myself into thinking there were actually 3,00 people sitting in front of me, rather than the actual 30! Anyone else have this problem? Suggestions?