not that OT Mary.....after a weekend spent with my family I'm feeling more able to cope. Bumped into an old flame too which was really nice and very good for the bashed self esteem! Am certainly too vulnerable to jump into something new, so i won't but it was really nice to be made feel like 'm sometin special. Am now on point of arranging the practical, give notice, to move my stuff back home and i believe they had crisis talks this weekened which he keeps trying to tell me about....but i don't care