I'm embarrassed to admit my main fear- I cannot bear the thought that people might go away feeling or saying, Oh, I felt so sorry for her, didn't you. And another saying something like, But why does she keep trying? It's so embarrassing...

Yikes.

Another fear is that not only might I faint, but that I might vomit. On stage. When I have gotten through it, I don't feel better because I'm aware that the next time might be the time...

Don't mind me. I just realized how sick I sound!