I stay at home, or have for the last few years. I sing ballad type songs and play recorder. I like melody first in any tune and then the words. Only recently have I started to play an accompanying instrument, guitar. I'm learning. Its opening a whole new area for me. I am married to a man with perfect pitch and a degree in music who can pick up any instrument and make a decent sound emerge from it. He exists within the landscape of music whereas I carefully follow paths through it. He sings cheerful songs and funny songs, because that's what his family sings. I sing solo laments, and have done since I was a teenager. I am prone to depression. Does this help?