Well, GUEST,I'd rather not say.
There you have it, a good number of People who can empathise with you and some sound advice.
Empathy certainly helps me when I read some of these posts. I feel a sense of relief that I am not the only person in the world who feels like this.
A few of the posts that are telling you that there is nothing worthwhile in what a lot of people here are saying to you....ARE WRONG, WAY OFF BASE and just downright uncaring. Not surprising judging by the sources. It is a usual response from those posters.
So, if you choose to, you can accept the "Folky" kindness being offered and see a Doc and know your not alone. Help is out there. Take it from the People who have been down this road before.
Ignore the ignorant and the "stand well back and offer ***k all to people that ask for help" types. They only make people feel worse.
Good Luck. It's a road your on...get the help you need and you will eventually get through this. I believe I will....and I believe you will too.
Check back in and we can compare Doc notes...this too shall pass...
Best Wishes to ya