Some ideas:

• See your doctor.


• Try medication - don't see it as a weakness, or think that the side effects are bad therefore you shouldn't take it. (I made that mistake once.)


• Don't be anxious about what you should be doing, just do what you can manage - every tiny bit is progress.

I have manic depression and have to take medication for it, probably for the rest of my life. I've been psychotic, and I've been at the point of death with it. Depression is unfair, selfish, frustrating, horrible and heartbreaking. And it definitely exists. I could cry all bloody day at what I've lost, but it's part of my life now and we just have to get on with things I suppose. The medication makes a world of difference for me. I hope it can for you if you choose to take it.