Karen,

Of course you are doing too much-- it's the only safe place to channel the worry and the best way you know how to stay strong. I pray that soon, a safe day will come so you can fall apart a little bit. Till then, just keep moving; keep putting one foot down at a time, and know that we are all pulling with you.

Be confident that dear Pat can rest on the cloud of our caring as long as he needs to, for him to rebuild his strength. That same cloud of caring will support you and the boys, too, as you keep walking strong; there's an endless source of strength that will keep holding all of you up as long as you need for it to be there.

I know Pat's body is working as hard as it can to get better, while the sedation keeps him down far enough to let go and to let his body take charge of its own healing. I'm sorry he woke up enough to know that something hurt. How relieved his healing-mechanisms must be, that the constant re-making of blood for blood lost, is over! Now they're already busy doing the delicate and hard work that will bring him home.

~Susan