Dealt with this a lot of my adult life--there are indeed pills, many of which are NOT addictive, will NOT turn you into something else, and WILL help; had a Dr. Friend who told me there are something like 45 receptors in your brain, controlling certain chemicals, excretions etc. like seratonin, nor-epinephrine, etc. One gets out of whack and it can domino into all the others, and create a depressive state. TALK to your Dr. Don't be shy about talking to a psychiatrist (someone who has an M.D. and can prescribe!!), and you may find something out there to balance things for you. My sister and Mom were on such--they boosted certain chemicals and whatnot-and worked-they were inexpensive, non-addictive, and only changed things for the better. They WON'T make you into something you're not! BTW, go to that site depressionhurts.com--while they are pushing their own drugs, the information is worthwhile. You needn't suffer! Depression is a treatable illness-NOT a character flaw.