SIMPLISTIC ASSESSMENT :-

If you are doing something because it pays you a wage, it is a job. You are not expected to enjoy a job - you do it because it pays you cash which allow you to the things which you do enjoy.
(ignore the fact that some people find a job they also enjoy).

If you are doing something for enjoyment, (being paid minimal expenses does not count as a wage) then you MUST enjoy it. If you are not enjoying it, make your farewells - you don't have to storm out with a big bust-up, you can just say it is time for you to move on (you've stuck it out so long a final 6 gigs gives time for them to look for a replacement).

If that isn't acceptable to them (or to you), then you shouldn't be there at all.

Quack!
GtD.