I doubted, most painfully, all my life. Till just a few years ago, when I found myself in deep personal crisis, in big BIG trouble, literally at my wit's end, helpless, hopeless, just twisted in pain and grief and fear with no other option in sight -- and I found myself praying for help just like I did as a little kid. Desperately. As a last resort.

"Jesus, if you really exist at all, and if you really love me like they've always told me you do, please PLEASE PLEASE TAKE THIS AWAY FROM ME NOW"

And lo and behold, there He was, manifest in perfect Light and Beauty and Power and Joy, in the privacy and sanctity of my own inner vision. Right arm outstretched, commanding, healing, blessing. And so it was. The pain was gone. The fear was gone. And I was just blown away with shock and gratitude. Words cannot even begin to describe how it felt ... 8-D

In the wisdom and power of that 30-second healing vision (and a couple more in the months that followed), He taught me more than I could have hoped to learn in an entire lifetime about spirituality, about Him, about myself. What was most astounding to me at the time was how very well he knew me! He knew exactly what I was experiencing and thinking and feeling, what I'd experienced and thought and felt all my life in fact. He knew exactly what I needed, and how to give it in a way that would have the most meaning, the most healing power, the most wide-ranging and lasting and beneficial effects, for me, personally. ANd that experience changed me forever.

IN fact, I am still benefitting in new ways, still learning and deriving new inspiritation from that encounter. And others like it in the years that followed -- not just involving Jesus, but the many many other spiritual Beings who guide and bless and protect and benefit and uplift me, every single day of my life.

As They do for every single one of you, whether you recognize or believe it or not.

Thank you so much to Mudcat for the opportunity to share this, to Freda and to others above ..... your willingness to share your own profound, life-changing yet most illogical, controversial and unscientific experiences was what gave me the courage to post this here at all.

K Bill, Wolfgang etc etc -- I'm all done. Lock and load!   :-)