Well, all I know is after my last posting I logged off with my jaw all set feeling like we should all stop obsessing, and considering not coming back, and then felt like an asshole all night, and then considering not coming back because I'd been so dumb. These subjects just are so hard to think about well. (I don't to be reassured about this, I'm just illustrating a point.)

But what else I know is that none of you "made" me feel that way. When the Violet posting first popped up I looked at it and decided not to re-open it because it just looked like stuff that would take everyone down a bad road. I didn't want to go there and I didn't want to see any of my new friends there either. Then last night I gave into the sick fascination these subjects can hold, and took a peek, and got all wound up. Not only did I feel like an asshole, I felt like a stupid one, and I prize the clarity of thought I can sometimes achieve pretty highly. I worked damn hard to get these little gray cells working smoothly.

So I think the real "Fascinatin' Bitch" in the Mudcat is the stuff we know we don't really want to indulge in, and do anyway, because we just can't leave it alone. This thread was one of mine, and I'll be back to the 'Cat, but not in this thread.

Finally, I know now why I want guests to register after a certain amount of time visting. It's because when they don't, the big sisters and big brothers (lowercase!!!) at the 'Cat can't drop by in the person's personal page and share a few tips on making the most of the opportunity to be with eveyone here. I've had a few of those and don't I wish I could send one to Allan S? When we have that opportunity, we don't have to "vote" for a thread by dwelling on it and in it, just to respond to the first poster. And we wouldn't have to respond and then watch lots of other people dive into the fray when they could be out there finding new songs we would all like, and playing for people out there who need to hear us.