Raptor, I lost my first wife 14 years ago and my second one July 4 of this year. I believe I'll have a drink with you.

I won't say it gets better with time, but it does get less bad. You are moving away from the stimulus of your pain. You will survive it and even, perhaps, allow yourself to love again.

PM me if you like. It can be nice to talk to someone who "gets it" and is walking a similar path.

Jeff