Having been thru the following mill myself to know how beneficial it can be for anyone willing to take the trip, I'd recommend seeing a Gestalt therapist (as I am). Or at least a therapist or counsellor.

    i don't say it holding out too much hope because I don't really like giving advice. What comes from you,GUEST No Houdini, is worth infinitely more to you than anything that comes from anyone else.

    One reason I do recommend it, nevertheless, is because we all have axes to grind in doing it on our own. An advantage of the presence of another who has no axe to grind and is trained, is that they won't be drawn into your 'stuff', and can help you uncover and see what you might not want/be able to do alone.

    Lastly, we all have all of our answers within ourselves already, along with plenty of obstructions to accessing them, and reasons to avoid them.

    best wishes, especially as you've moved already,






       Ivor