Bee. You suggest that you have to be 'chosen' but to the contrary, you have to choose...everyone has the choice of their path in life. I just hope everyone seeks their destiny, whatever it is and does not talk themselves out of anything without full knowledge of what they are actually talking themselves out of.
There have been many aspects of my life where I was a non-Christian and in trouble or strife of some sort and when at a very low ebb, I used to pray to God for help...I even tried bargaining..you know the sort of thing...God if you get me out of this I will.....whatever!
I never questioned why I prayed at those times but now I understand why I did. I believe it was an instinct.....no-one had taught me to do it. Have you ever prayed in those circumstances? Who told you to? Why did you?.
I don't see myself as better than others but I do feel privileged to be a part of a Christian family with God as the head. It is not harming anyone else and does me a power of good. After some of the trauma I have suffered in my life, life now seems so much easier and much less problematic.