I too have moments where being an orphan is overwhelming. Deep down somewhere, I know they are still with me and always will be. But there is a longing for the physical hug, and words of encouragement.
As a child, I remember thinking that I was sure that i would die if my Dad did. Well, now that I'm growed up I know that things are different and you have to get on with life, but its hard.
I treasure my connections that happen on a daily basis - the song on the radio, the pennies, and many other little things.

Most of the time I live alone, in some ways its good if I feel like a good cry, then there are no holds barred, but sometimes when a little disraction is needed, I've no one to turn to. I try not fall into the chasm of self pity.

No, life is for living, so I'd better get on with it and learn whatever lesson I came here for.

Pat xx