Like eanjay said, Becca, whatever it is that you feel - it's the right thing. There aren't any rules.

I lost my mum 5½ years ago and my dad a year ago and reacted in different ways each time. I lived a long way from them, and although I spoke to them regularly, I didn't see them every day so it didn't somehow seem to be so much of a jolt when they weren't there.

It'll be hard to see this at the moment, but there's some good can come out of everything. If, as a result of this, your relationship with your sisters is strengthened, then - however you felt about each other - she'd be pleased.

You could keep her picture around, maybe with some fresh flowers by it. If she still has a presence, it'll be with people who remember her.

I know a lot of this sounds glib and trite now, but you may view it differently with time. And remember you're not alone. Condolences.