What Kat said a good few posts back. Let go of what is leaving your life and welcome the next bit in. The bad stuff can't stick around the good stuff for long, so work on that and the rubbish will go. I know all this stuff far too well. I am a fifty-one year old ex busker living in another country, where I do can not even write the language. I have just had the sort of month financially that I used to dream about. I wish you the same and I believe you can have it. Let us hear about it as the good news starts to come in again.