bb, as I said, your original question is between Judas and God. I'm not taking a turn pretending I'm God, today. :~)
In my 6-years-plus experience around here, most Mudcat "religion" threads are merely thinly-veiled excuses for attacks on Christianity and/or its believers, past or present. Quite often they amount to a grudge against the Roman Empire. I, on the other hand, wrote in personal terms about an active and thinking faith. I'm not interested in grudge matches.