I Apologize. I did not consider the possibility that there is room for more than one Knucklehead, and I cast away my title in haste. Its just that in my first post here I was opening up my heart and laying out my thoughts on the topic that incorporated a lot of what others had to say, and indeed, used their own logic. Only for a millisecond did I consider that your responses may have been intended for my best interest, and I should have sought the best from them, even though they did seem sharp. I was trying to inspire a little humor and satire – it's not as fun when its personal, so maybe my thin skin isn't right for KBR, but you don't know me well enough to comment on my employability.

I understand that (with some imagination, in my opinion) there are parallels with a willingness to die to preserve or improve a way of life and that of an Islamic martyr. Perhaps our societies are not infinitely far apart. The difference for me is, I have something worth dying for, so I have something worth living for. What a wonderful gift. I guess I didn't make clear that I intended to live by whatever means available, because I agree that children would do better with a live dad than a paid off house or tuition - at least idealogically.

I find that is hard for people (especially me) to put others first, so I consider it heroic. Maybe some (or many)don't become a part of KBR (or similar) for the sake of others, that's not really any of my business. Accusers search yourself!

I should have been slow to respond to your replies, and written of only what is helpful for the benefit of those who read and listen. I should have been quick to thank you for trying to soak in my ramblings and muster a response. A discussion here may give me or others the courage to talk with friends about other potentially painful or heated subjects that must be confronted for relationships to grow, but I digress.

Our arguments on this matter can only produce semantics and quarrels that can not be won here. The glass is either half empty or half full, but that is not the right question.   If your brother or sister is thirsty and needs a drink, are you willing to share the water you have?

Thanks for the wishes of luck, we all could use it sometimes.