Tammi! So sorry to hear this, I lost my dad suddenly last year, the shock is terrible and though I didn't visit him half as often as I should when he was alive, maybe 2 or 3 times a year, I miss him terribly. Time is a great healer, don't be embarassed to cry, grieve well, I bottled it up and almost lost the plot, which, now I can see straight, I know he would not have wanted. I talk to him every day, I dont know if he can hear me but it helps. Sending you love and hugs and the strength to get through the early days, my hand id holding yours!
Lucy