I'm waxing philosophical about it all this morning.

Knowing this tempest in a teapot over Wright's remarks is only relevant to the presidential ambitions of Obama, I then look at the incredibly unjust and demoralizing decision in the police brutality case regarding Sean Bell, and feel like I want to throw in the towel.

The punditocracy ignores the Sean Bell case, and instead goes running with their mics and camera after a man who was made irrelevant and redundant at the same time, and decided he wouldn't go gently into that good night.

Which of these two "race" stories most accurately reflects the "state of race relations" in the US today?

I would say, the Sean Bell case. An innocent man, showered in a hail of police bullets, murdered by their (the police officers') fear of black men.

But then, I also know the deeply disturbing saga of Damon Wayans' "Abortion Man" video:

http://whataboutourdaughters.blogspot.com/

That also is the truth I see everyday, living and working in the African American community too. Which also depresses me, and makes me want to make Spike Lee's film "Bamboozled" required viewing in every junior high school in America.

So today, I know the media won it's racist gotcha game. I feel deeply uncomfortable with it, but know the media was only able to get away with it because Obama allowed it to go this far. He has known all along he would have to throw Wright from the train, so why did he wait until it so poisoned the debate in the public square?

But then there is the part of me that empathizes with this man I detest for being the best corporate candidate in the history of the planet, because I know how unfair it is to expect one human being to "heal" the 600 year old racial wounds of a nation and a world, when that isn't what the dude is all about.

So, the whole thing still makes me sick. And when I think how cynically and evilly he is being manipulated by those corporate masters who are drowning him in their dollars, even sicker still.

To say it makes me ashamed to be an American doesn't even begin to cover it.