Mick, none of us can really put ourselves in your position and understand the emotions you are going through, but hopefully you can find some degree of comfort in the knowledge that so many of your friends at Mudcat are thinking of you and sending good thoughts and prayers to you and your family in this extremely difficult time. It is a situation that no one wants to be in, but from what I've gathered about you from your posts on Mudcat, you seem to be a strong individual that can keep perspective and get through this.   

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.