Mrrzy,

I spent 4 years with a psychiatrist and a therapist. Half the time I hated them; sometimes I tolerated them; sometimes I loved them.

Some members of my family still haven't forgiven me for "resorting" to therapy. But I am happy and have a life today. I recommend therapy to everyone as long as you can recognize when you are ready to move on without it.

Strange but true, that is very difficult for some professionals (not mine) and it seems to be more about control than money.

Re: Anger. I grew up in a home where I was forbidden to show anger. I had no tools for dealing with it. Once I found a way to feel it and stop fearing it, I was on my way to recovery. My first act of anger? I bounced a check to my therapist! It was the first check I had ever bounced in my life.

Just keep taking care of yourself. You have taken the first few steps on the road back.

SS