Severn, you are one of the best folks I've 'met' in years, and from a few talks on the phone last summer, I know you are a quiet understated sob. You have the courage to handle this and lots left over for the rest of us. You are going to get thru this, but it is going to hurt like hell for a while. That's nature's way of letting you know your nerves are screaming, and that's a good thing. Hang in.