So...after a few Fucks! Shits! Sons of a Whore! and some tears, I settled down and realized that today is not a whole lot different from yesterday. The "What is": Kendall's voice is no worse than it was on Monday. Kendall may still get it back.

As to the positive thoughts not helping, I see just the opposite. Two months of looking for Ezra, comforting Meghan, and worrying 24/7 have taken their toll. This growth is at least partially due to all that stress.

So, for now, rant, rave, throw things. DO NOT kick Jacqui or the dog. Get all the frustration and anger out. And then we start over.

But not at the beginning - the experience you have with the first tumor puts you light years ahead on treating the second one. Let us know when to re-light the candles.
Mary