Spaw, you bastard! This is the first post of yours that has made my eyes leak.

Folks, I never said that you don't count. What I meant was, praying for someone else doesn't count. As the article Curmudgeon posted said, there is not one bit of evidence that prayers for someone else work.

Sure I believe in the Great spirit, but I'm a Deist. I'm mad as hell that it created tobacco, and that I got addicted to it.I quit smoking 13 years ago, and this appeared 4 years later. I'm tired. I can tolerate the despair, it's the god damn hope that's getting me.

There is a photo on our bathroom wall of a penguin covered in oil walking up the beach and the caption is: FUCK IT, I'M GOING HOME. I know just how it feels.