The loss of ones parents is a shock, even if it is expected--it can feel like an abyss of sorts as so much shifts in your life. As others have said, time does help. Did your father want a funeral, or not? So many (including me!) don't want a formal funeral, but it leaves the way open to craft a memorial meal or event that you know your loved one would have loved to attend and would be proud of you for organizing.

Take care of yourself while you're taking care of the rest of this.

SRS