Dishes are done, floors are swept and I undecorated the tree this morning. One of my Christmas gifts was a new recliner (so I have a comfy spot to relax and heal after my surgery) and it is coming tomorrow. The only spot I have for it is where the Christmas tree is. I'll leave up the nativities and other things but the tree has to come down. I'm kind of glad in a way because it is in front of a sliding glass door and blocks out a good deal of sunlight which I have been missing.
I got in 2 meals yesterday...on the small side but at least it was something. I had breakfast this morning too...not really hungry but knowing I need to get in some kind of nutrients plus enough food to go with my meds so I don't feel so sick.
I continue to struggle with a lot of anxiety...it seems to kick in first thing in the morning and then again when the sun starts to go down. I am missing my yoga which is a huge stress reliever for me, the more physical, the better and right now, I'm not to do that. I have some prayers to meditate on and combine with my breathing....I've done that until I've breathed my throat sore and that helps some. I just don't know what to do with this panic....it's overwhelming, exhausting and I can't stand myself like this.
Anyway, I suppose this isn't the place for all that. I did my decluttering this morning and am trying to be accountable by getting in some decent nutrition which is really hard to do when carrying around all this panic inside me. I just have no interest in food.