You do not need to worry about worrying us, or keeping us waiting. We've all had a lot of experience with waiting in the last year or so.... When we don't know what is happening for you, I expect most of us just redouble our prayer efforts, and that never hurts.
This is a whoa-nellie track you are on. You are definitely up to the challenge. Trust yourself to know what to do and how to look at things along the way. We will all be with you, one step at a time, ready to catch you whenever you need it.