Remember all those times in the past when I worked with you to teach you "how" to put your focus where YOU want to put it? Because we can choose our viewpoint-- vantage point-- from which we look at things around us.
This is such an opportunity.
One approach-- You could talk to that cancer and give it HELL: Tell it the examples of wacky-joyous-victorious behavior you've seen in other people doing THEIR battles-- I know you have had (too many) role models. Take the BEST from all those examples and you can (when you are ready and able) follow the victory-side of those models. How they LIVED. (OK, so some of them died, but do not look THERE.)
You can choose to keep your attention there: how they LIVED.
It's not easy, I know-- think of all the times, tho, that you DID shift your attention to the positive.
As I recall, a powerful approach was, what are YOUR goals in that very nice life you and Pete have made for yourselves? What did you want to do with that, the week before you got the first scare on this? They can still be your goals. Point your eyes in that direction, when you are ready. It's all still right there.
Yes, you also need to give vent to the fear, but you do not need to "believe" it.
GO, GIRL.
~Susan
PS this is for Michelle only and is not a time-specific direction. It will kick in when she's ready for it.