Linn,

It's okay to hold yourself and rock and moan...if it feels good...it doesn't mean you have lost all control and won't be able to go on. You will...it will just be a way of letting out some of the stress of hanging on and trying to be strong for Tom and yourself.

Breaking down and "losing it" can be healthy for a short time and if you don't go overboard.:-)

I hope you are sound asleep in comfort and ease, darlin'...luvyakat