I guess.

I did have a GREAT weekend but it also ended with Veronica asking if I would teach her how to knit next time she comes and we made plans for June. So, yeah, it was hard to say goodbye but I know she will be back and about 10 minutes after she left, I was ok. It's just that this is the second friend to back out after making a big deal about wanting to go with me. I get excited and then they back out so I'm just disappointed. It's not a big deal. I think maybe I won't take anyone else up on their offer to go. My neighbor who wanted to be so helpful and was just about begging for something to do hasn't been heard from since then. So hm.

It's not even that I NEED a ride or the company, it's that I want it. I don't really NEED my neighbor's help but was looking forward to getting to know her better. I'm ok for all but about a week out of my 28 day cycle. I'm planning for the down time this time....I know what to expect from my body, I'm used to being bald (and am going out in public that way if I am too hot with a hat on), I have a handicapped placard so I can go out if I need to and be close to the door and have used the scooters at the store so I know I can do that too. I am currently getting EVERYTHING in the house laundered so all the clothes are clean, sheets and towels are all fresh and I am working on a menu of things that I can make in the next few days and freeze for the nights when it hurts too much to walk to the kitchen, let alone cook...all I'll have to do is throw something in the oven. I don't like the idea of Pete working all day and coming home to have to cook for both himself and me.

So...I'm ok and am planning ahead so I don't have to count on people who back out. It's frustrating and disappointing.

Michelle