I had a vaginal hysterectomy and had so much scar tissue, it was painful for years until I found a female doc who understood and cauterized it. Also, five years on from open heart surgery and where they cracked me open still is very tender at times; not just the incision, but deep down. You have just been through an extreme assault on your body. It is your job to get out of the way, i.e. stop your mind from wandering down those dark roads labelled "What If?" and let your body do its healing. It is also important for your mental and emotional health. Speak calming words to your body; let it know that all is well and tell it thank you for getting you this far and for the joy you will have with it all healed up. Try not to claim it as "my cancer." That can fill your mind with all kinds of continuing relationships with it and I know that is not really what you want. Let it go, let it be gone. When you must speak of it, or think of it, use "the" instead of "my," okay?:-)

When Myrtle Fillmore was full of tuberculosis she started praying about it and repeated over and over "I am a child of God. I do not inherit sickness." She was healed and folks started coming to her for affirmative prayers. That was one hundred and twenty years ago when Silent Unity came into being. I know you have your own spiritual support/church there, but Silent Unity is available 24/7 and take phone calls from all over the world, from all walks of faith. My sister used to be one of the Silent Unity prayer operators. Anyhow, when you get scared and if it would help, you could always call them Silent Unity at 1-800-669-7729 (1-800-NOW-PRAY). I don't usually post stuff like this, but it seems it may be of help to you.:-)

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