I don't know if it's age or just a sudden realization I've had. I don't think others have had it. I look around me at humans and each and everyone of them looks innocent. Because of that innocence, they wander around bewildered about how it should be! Going about trying to deal. They don't even know they're innocent.

I work in NY and ride the busses, trains, subways. I've taken to watching peoples eyes. The windows of the soul. I see a lot pain. People get lied to all their lives about how it should be. Life I mean. How can you go through life and not be disappointed?

I see old people totally bewildered. Wandering around trying to deal with daily life. Scared!

I see young beautiful people with eyes filled with anger, fear, bewilderment. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO BE?? What do I have to do to be happy??? How can I succeed when everything they've told me is a lie?? NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME!!

I see business people who think they're savvy hanging on to the straps with hurt in their eyes. Im doing what they say to do. WHY AREN"T I HAPPY??? I'm following the rules, damn it. Why am I struggling?

What do I miss most in our civilization?? Love and understanding!

It makes me want to hide away sometimes. I can see the innocence. Can't anyone else??

Love, annamil